So Chicken is good for you huh...

Once again I had chicken for dinner. I know that it is good for you but honestly I am sick of chicken. The thoughts of it makes me sick sometimes. I am trying to stay away from red meat because of the high fat content but I would love a huge greasy hamburger right now. I am trying to fit in as many workouts as I can with my new work schedule. My husband even cooked dinner the other night so I could get a workout in after work. He is excited because he can tell now the weight I have lost. I am happy with my progress and happy to say that I can see me getting this last 100 pounds off. God bless and until next time...

Sorry so long

My computer broke and we had to get a new one so I am sorry it has been so long. I am happy to report that I am now down to 277. I have a new job and I am now the proud owner of my first 2 piece bathing suit. Shorts and Tank kini style top. I am excited about summer coming up I hope I can get alot of this weight off. I am feeling stronger and better about myself. I hope that everyone is doing good and working to meet whatever goals you may have. We can all meet our goals if we just work at them. God bless and until next time...

Back to work

Well today I went back to the gym for the first time since my incident on Tuesday. I worked out for over and hour took my time and got in a great workout. I am proud of the progress I have made in my weight loss and am happy to report I am now looking at my last 100 pounds. I can't hardly wait to see what I will look like when I finally get under 200 pounds. I can not even remember when was the last time I was under 200. I know this is the hardest work I have ever done, but in the end it will be well worth it. God bless and until next time...

Sorry So Long

Ok I know I have not posted in a long time but to be honest there has not been alot of changes to report. I am now at 278 pounds it has taken me almost a month to get out of the 280's. I must admit I became very frustrated and just didn't feel like saying anything. I am still working out 6 days a week and I had a scare yesterday at the gym. My blood pressure went way down 100/60 to be exact. I guess that means I do not need high blood pressure meds anymore.
To get thru a plateau I now see how I did it. I just kept to my diet and exercise and even though it seems that it took forever I finally started loosing again. I had a really hard time I will admit. I know I should have blogged about it and I am sorry I didnt. Now though I can see 72 lbs gone and only 120 to go. Thanks and I promise I will blog again soon. God bless and until next time...

Stuck

I am never gonna get out of the 280's. I have been stuck here for forever it feels like. I didn't meet my monthly goals and right now it would be so easy for me to give up. I feel like I failed and now I am stuck at 287. I am going nowhere fast. I am very angry with myself. God knows that I have a fear of failing just like before. I am very down today so if anyone reads this I ask you to send me a pick up. Thanks...

OMG I am paying to kill myself

I realized today when I was working out that I am killing myself over there and I pay them to let me do it. OK so I am not really killing myself but it sure feels like it. I have 87 pounds to lose and when I reach that 200 mark I am going to quit smoking. I pray that God will see me through this weight loss and I will see my goal of 150 by the end of the year. I have also decided that when I reach my goal I am going to throw a big party to celebrate the weight I have lost. I am stronger now and I am seeing results that this is working so I am hopeful. God bless and until next time...

Day 1

OK so I am feeling like I need to change course so to speak. I have been cheating a little with the diet and so here goes day 1 again. I am gonna drink my water, watch my fats, and count my meals and snacks. Three meals a day and 2 snacks. I am also gonna log my water intake as well. 64 ounces of water a day. I am still down on my weight but if I don't stop this slip up now I won't be down long. Its ok to have to start again. As long as you have the effort you can have the results. God bless and until next time...

284

Today's weight 284. That is a total of 40 pounds gone. I am feeling good but I am tired too. I  worked out for 2 hours today. I have never done that before. I have worked every muscle in my body I think. I know it sure feels like it. I now have to adjust my diet and start drinking more water. I think I may even try to run in the evenings. God bless and until next time...

Double the workouts

Ok so the doubling up on workout thing was not my best ideal. I am trying to get there but to be honest it is making me so tired that I am regretting that decision. I am down to 287 though. I haven't seen that number in some years it is nice to see. My clothes are now too big and I am looking like a bum on most days because nothing fits. That is ok though because I can slowly get clothes along the way. Well that's it for now I guess. God bless and until next time...

289

Woke up this morning and got on the scale to see 289 staring back at me. I am so excited to be out of the 290's. I hope I never see those again. My friend invited me to go on vacation with her in late May so if things work out for me and I can stay on track I am hoping to see 250 by then. I know it is alot of weight to get rid of but I believe I can do it. She is a great support system for me as are all of you it is nice to know I have people who believe in me. Diet is going good and it really doesn't seem much like a diet anymore. It is more like this is just the way I eat. So I guess that is good. I have a feeling that Easter Dinner is gonna be interesting by the time I get done with it. LOL. God bless and until next time...

3 more pounds

I am currently at 292 so that means that 3 more pounds and I will be under 290. I want that 3 pounds GONE! I want it worse than I want girl scout cookies worse than I want chips. LOL. I can not wait until I can post that I am under 290. That will be so HUGE!

My 11 year old son brought girl scout cookies in my house ( my favorite kind by the way) I got so upset and then I thought about it and realized that he can have them and I am fine with that. I have always needed so much support to do anything I am proud of the fact that I can see that I am winning. I still battle food and I guess I always will but I am winning. I can see some light even if it is faint I can see it. I have a feeling that I  can do this no matter what is around. Anyway sorry if this one is hard to read. My mind is racing today. God bless and until next time...

Weight

Why does a persons weight have to go up and down so much. This would be so much easier if I didn't see a 1 or 1.5 pound difference every time I get on the scale. I have tried the first thing in the morning and there are some days that by that evening I weigh more and sometimes less. This is really killing me. I never know for sure what is right and what is wrong. I believe that I am gonna stick to whatever is lowest. Ha that will work.

I know have a new workout buddy which is great. My aunt has decided that she wants to work on her weight too so that gives me 2 people to work out with. Now that the weather is starting to warm up I can also walk in the evenings which I am sure will help. Well that is it for now. Time to get up and move. God less and until next time...

2 a days

In football when summer comes and it is time for conditioning they have what is known as 2 a days. This means that twice a day all players must report to workouts. I am now on that same principal, I am now going to workout twice a day. I have lost 35 pounds now and I want to get below 250 before summer. I know what I am eating and what to avoid. I know to drink my water and now I am upping my game. I hope this works, and if you see me out and about please tell me I am not crazy ok. God bless and until neat time...

Now at 293

When I weighed this morning I am proud to announce I am at 293. I feel great and I am proud of myself for all my hard work. I do have to admit that I have been drinking way too many diet sodas so I am going to work on that this week. I am also increasing my weight and reps at the gym this week. That is the hard part when it is time for increases at the gym. But I think I can handle it. I also got into a pair if pants a friend got me last spring. I left them hanging in my closet all this time still with the tags on them. Now I  and can proudly say I have went from a 32 to a 26. God bless until next time...

Sugar Free Strawberry Delights

1 pint of fresh strawberries
1 tub of Sugar free Cool Whip
8oz of Sugar Free Dark Chocolate
1 pack of Crepes
1 tub of Sugar Free Strawberry Glaze


Cut and Clean Strawberries. Mix with half of the glaze, Then in the center of a crepes add one tablespoon of strawberries, 1 Tbs of Cool whip and fold forming a square. Repeat until all are completed. Top with cool whip. In a small bowl melt the dark chocolate. Drizzle over the top, Drizzle some of the remaining glaze. Stick in fridge until chocolate sets.

Serving size- 1 crepes
Calories- about 50

I hope you all try this recipe. It is very good and very low in fat . You feel like you are having a guilty pleasure without it being one.

Trying on clothes

Ok so yesterday I went to the local Walmart with my mother. I was looking around and saw some jeans and thought I would just try them on just to see. I got them up and button but not able to zip them yet but still what a great feeling I got. I was wearing size 32 pants when I started this journey and I was able to get a size 26 up and fastened. It felt like such an accomplishment to be able to get that far. I know in a few more I will be able to wear a size 26 and I will be so happy. This is really hard to get through but I know I can do it. I want to be able to wear a two piece bathing suit. I may not be there by summer but if I continue to work hard enough I just might. God bless and until next time....

My grocery bill was alot smaller then

I can't believe how much my grocery bill has went up since I started this new lifestyle. Just the cost of trying to keep small things in the house is huge. Oh well, I am doing well on this new plan and I am goning to stick with it.

Now what is own my mind today...Well tomorrow I am going out to eat with my entire family. I have a new killer dress that shows how much weight I have lost and I am going to wear that. I also have to try to research what I can eat so I will know what to order. I am going to The Rush this afternoon I have some things to do first but no matter what try to get in your workouts. I miss one every now and then but I try to stay true to them. Well I guess that is it for now. God bless and until next time...

Down 10 inches

Yes thats right 10 inches gone from my body. I feel AWSOME! I still have along way to go but now I really feel like I will get there. I am so excited to see my pants are too big. I can cross my legs, set indian style on the floor, and can touch the floor with my legs straight and palms flat. I can't wait to see what I look like, only 154lbs to go. Thanks for the support God bless and until next time...

A truth to be conqured

When I was working out this morning I looked down and saw my stomach getting flat. I really have to admit that it scared me a little. I have become so cocooned in my shell of being overweight that it is a kind of scary thought to allow myself out of the shell. When you are overweight people look at you and never think of you as a person. You are the fat girl or the heavyset lady that lives down the street. You don't have people expecting you to be real. I think that is alot of why I let myself become that person. The hurt I have dealt with in my life made me want to keep people away from me. That way nobody could hurt me. I see now though that you can't live that way. That instead of protecting yourself you are hurting yourself. Nobody saw me which is what I wanted at the time but somewhere in it all I also lost myself. The person I was disappeared and was replaced by an eating wreak of a human being. I can see now that somewhere in all this weight there is a person who is craving love and respect. A person who craves to be human again. I will set her free in time. I will conquer this battle and I will be that person with emotions again. God bless and until next time...

Emotions

So often in my I have turned to food when I felt bad now I am realizing how much more damage I did to myself by doing that. I am trying to stay focused and stay on track. This weekend however has been a battle for me. I have not been able to do alot because it has been raining. My kids and husband have been home all day long so there has been arguing going on. These I realize are the moments when I want to eat. I am not hungry I am just feeding my frustration. So now I know and see them for what they are and I can now proudly say I can stop myself. This is not just about weight loss but I also have alot of emotions to cope with. I can do this I know I can. It is just gonna take time. God bless and until next time...

I can cross my legs

I went to set down today and I can now cross my legs. I am so excited that I can do that. I know it is a small thing but when you are as big as I am getting small enough to cross my legs is a big deal. I can't wait to see what I will look like by summer. I will post a before picture soon. Thanks for the support God bless and until next time...

My hardest workout

I have such a hard time dragging myself to the gym yo workout when it is raining. I just want to stay home and sleep or veg in front of the TV. I know though that if I don't go workout then I most likely will not do anything else so I had better go to the gym. Spring is right around the corner and with it the pretty weather I need to go outside and do things. This year is gonna be so different from before. I am not gonna just sit around. I am gonna get out and run and play with my kids. I am gonna lose this weight. God bless and until next time...

I made it

I made it to my first goal. Today I am officially under 300 lbs. 298.5 to be exact. I am so excited it is an unbelievable high to reach my goal. The next goal is to see 250 by the end of May. I am gonna have to work really hard but I know I can do it. God bless and until next time...

Feeling good

Woke up this morning and went to clean my friends house. Now I am getting ready to hit the gym. I feel great lots of energy. My diet is back on track and hopefully I can stay there. I am loving the exercise it makes me feel good. I hope that this feeling stays with me. Now with warmer weather moving in I can go for walks in the evening. Well off to the gym. God bless and until next time...

OK I Cheated

Ok so I cheated last night for dinner. I had pizza. I know, I am not suppose to eat like that anymore but I was so tired I didn't want to cook. The husband and kids were wanting it so I gave in. Confession is good so I confess. I will get back on track today and stick with my diet. I will work out extra hard today and it will not hurt me too much I don't think. Trying hard to keep up the fight I am not going to give up this time. I WILL lose this weight. God bless and until next time...

March 1st

New month  and that means a new goal. This month is simple stay on track and lose 20lbs by month's end. I hope I can do it. I have the gym now and I love going over there so hopefully I can stay on tack. I am having the most trouble out of my diet. I want to eat at night and during the day I am not hungry so I am really working on that. I hope someone gets something out of this. I really want to make a difference in someones life. I hope telling my story helps. God bless and until next time...

I am tired

I am feeling so tired of trying to diet. I know I have too but I wish I could just sit down and eat without thinking of portions or calories. I know in the long run it will pay off and I will look good. I still feel like it has been forever already. I guess I really hoped for better results all those TV shows seem to have quick ones. The truth is that there are no quick fixes and it is hard work. I struggle everyday with this and I always will. God bless and until next time...

30 days ended

Well tod ay was the end of my 30 days at the rush. I am pretty proud of myself. I am down to 304 lbs. That is 20 lbs lost in 30 days. I am sorry I haven't posted this week but my computer has been in the shop so now I have it back I will start posting again. Thank you for all the support while I work on this journey. Just 5 more pounds and we get to celebrate my first major milestone. Out of the 300's. God bless and until next time...

I lost it.

I have lost it. One entire size. I have on an outfit I have not been able to get on in over a year. I went down an entire size in underwear. I am so happy. Yeah me. Gotta weigh today still but regardless I am happy. God bless and until next time...

I woke up late this morning so that means I have to workout after church. I feel better if I workout first thing in the morning but I will still workout. My father in law is taking everyone out for lunch today I hope I can keep my diet in check. Weigh in is tomorrow so keeping my fingers crossed. God bless and until next time...

Feeling Good

I got up at 6:00 this morning and went to the gym. I have to admit I really didn't want to go but now I feel so good. The energy that I get after I workout is so lifting and now I made myself some egg whites, turkey sausage and an english muffin for breakfast. I dont even think about food like I use to. Now I just fix what I can have and thats it. I feel good now I know that I am doing the right thing and it makes me feel great. God bless and until next time...

So busy

I have been so busy today. So much going on but I am proud because I took the time to workout this morning. I am comfortable enough with my diet now that I am not having to write everything down anymore. The thought of fried foods make me sick to my stomach. I have been working so hard I am happy that I am staying with it. This is alot of hard work and sometimes I want to give up but then I remember why I am doing all this and I just keep going. God bless and until next time...

Gotta get back to water today

I fell off the wagon so to speak yeaterday. I had WAY too much soda and I am paying for it this morning. My lower back where the kidneys are located is killing me. I feel like I have been punched there. I will never do this again. Give me my water. Kept to the diet though even picked up some ground turkey that was on sale. I am waiting til my son gets out of school to go to the gym. He wants to go with me so that is fine maybe by then my back will not hurt. God bless and until next time...

I dont wanna go

Today I am so tired. I am sore and have been up since 2:00 this morning. Ok now the thing is I KNOW that I need to go. I still have to clean the boys bedrooms. I can make a thousand more excuses but come 9:00am I will be headed to workout. Not that anyone is forcing me, I need to go and I know I will feel better after I get done. Days like today are gonna show up with its million excuses and reasons not to go. I will not stop until I reach my goal. God bless and until next time...

Weigh in Day

OK Current weight 274.4lbs so I only lost like 4lbs this week. I guess that is still good but I would have loved to lost more. It is still weight gone though. I can't wait until spring gets here then I am gonna be moving and running and losing more weight. Oh well I have time on my side. My goal date is still 6 months away. God bless and until next time...

Worried

Tomorrow is weigh in day and I have to admit I am worried about it. My stomach is flatter a little anyway but I think I haven't lost much this week. My clothes are looser so I don't know. I went and worked out this morning and now everyone is up and getting ready for church. I think I will go for a walk after church and try to get in more exercise. I am loving my time at the rush and all the staff has been great. I hope that this time there isn't a bad mistake. I worry that when my time is up it will be harder to lose the weight because my body will be use to those machines. Oh Well I guess. Until next time...

Good Pain

Today I went to the rush to workout  and met a really nice lady who is a trainer there. She asked me if I had any questions and when I told her about the pain in my side she said it was a good pain. Now that I think about it I am sore but I feel great. I can feel that my muscles are getting the workout they need. I am feeling better than I have in years. Today is a good pain day. Today I can feel that I am changing and I am happy about it. I have until 2/27/11 to workout at the rush. I know I am not gonna lose 150lbs in a month but if I work hard I can lose alot. God bless and until next time....

Trigger Day

Today is gonna be a trigger day. I have to go to a funeral tonight so I know I am gonna have to watch it today. I am also gonna make sure I get breakfast in today. That way I am not starving by lunch. Keeping on track one day at a time. Until next time...

I missed breakfast again this morning. I have to stop doing that. I need to remind myself that food is important to keep me going. I found some fish that looks good so that will be dinner tonight. I am looking forward to hot weather so I can do more with my workout. Keep up the work. We will look good for summer. Until next time....

OOPS

Sorry about no blog yesterday. There has but today I am back on track and I will soon be out the door going to the gym. I plan to hit it hard today so wish me luck. There will be days like yesterday where I will fall but the important thing is to keep getting back up. God bless. Until next time...

Weigh in Day....

Today I am down six more pounds. I am starting to see it now and I am excited. My friend got me the biggest loser workout video so I am gonna try it. I am feeling better than I have in a long time. I can see myself being to keep this new lifestyle. Until next time...

I feel like I cheated

I feel like I cheated on my diet because I had 1 slice of bacon. It is funny because I could eat an entire pack at one time and not even think of it. I am now quitting smoking too. I decided I can't become healthy if I am smoking. This is my last chance to become the person I have always wanted to be. To play with my kids and see grandkids one day. To live a full life and grow old. So tell me I am not horrible for eating a slice of bacon. Tell me I don't have to feel bad. Today I will make it and be ok. Today will end in victory for me. Until next time....

So Sore

I hurt everywhere after my workout the other day. I was so busy yesterday I didnt even get to post. Sorry about that. I have now added giving up smoking to my battle. I want to be healthy you know... Well today I am heading back to the gym and taking advantage of my free pass. Wish me luck. Until next time....

It can only help

Well I was offered a 30 day free trail at the rush. I figure that it can only help and maybe get me a little ahead. I am gonna try it anyway. Today will most likely kill me but I will get up and do it again tomorrow. I have been kinda off the past couple of days with eating. I am not getting hungry which is good but I still have to eat. My husband has been sick and taking care of him has been a workout of its own. This morning I am back on track and might even try a Zumba class. That will be something to see LOL. Until next time...

I don't have cankles anymore

When I woke up this morning I put on my exercise gear and my cankles are gone! Can we get a whoop whoop. I had my husband home sick yesterday and though he drove me nuts I resisted the triggers and I didn't eat. Food is just fuel and I am seeing that now. I sure hope someone out there will read this. I will keep writing because one day someone will. Until next time...

this is a new for me

I am not hungry. I am not sure if it is the whole wheat or the water but I am not hungry anymore. This morning when I went to get dressed I was able to fit into pants that were too tight. I also have a waist. So far to go yet but it is nice to be able to see an improvement. Until next time...

Weigh in Day

Well today's weight was 283 so I have lost 9 lbs this week. Weekends are gonna be hard with my husband and kids home. But I will learn how to cope it is just gonna take practice. Off to work out. Keep going dont give up. Until next time....

Denise Austin is kicking my butt

I am trying the cardio fat burn with Denise Austin and boy does it work. When you watch her she looks like she isn't doing anything but doing the workout boy do you feel it. I can actually run a little now and tomorrow is my weigh in so hopefully I have lost some major pounds but if I haven't then I will just keep going. I am really starting to have some fun in this which is cool. I setting myself up for a good  life full of  being active. Until next time...

I can feel the difference

I can feel a difference already. Its the little things like being able to climb the stairs without being winded. I am getting full and not being hungry all the time. I dont see it in my clothes yet but I know I will soon. Workouts are still tough but I know I will get through them. So I can't give up I have to keep on track. Food is for fuel not a friend. Being able to see triggers and getting through the moments will always be a struggle but I can see them now. So keep fighting and don't give up. Until next time...

WOW

I feel great today. I woke up and did my morning routine with the kids and when I got home I went to make my breakfast and COULDN'T eat it all. Now I have all this energy and cleaning the house. I cant see any changes yet but I can feel them. I cant wait until Monday when I get to weigh in. I really pray that all this skin will shrink up as I lose this flab. I hope someone is following this and I am helping someone out there. So until next time...

Exercise

OK so am I sure that I can make it through an exercise program. NOPE! Is it hard to keep up right now? YEP!! Do I have to try? Yes! Because if I dont, then I will never reach my goal. I have seen what working hard can do and I will try. But don't expect me to keep up for now. Give me a few months and then I will. Until next time....

I have gotta to keep going

I have to keep going. Started exercising today thanks to Comcast Fit TV on demand. There are so many free workouts on there. Also walked  2 laps around the apartment complex. I can feel it. I have 2 major events in September. My oldest son is turning 18 and my sister-in-law is getting married. She wants me to be in the wedding. I have to lose weight before then for sure. But of all the reasons I need to do it for me. I have to look at myself each day. I have to carry around this oversized body. I have to live with the pains and high blood pressure. I can only  blame myself. I have many friends and family that believe in me. I pray to God each day for strength and determination. So if anyone reads this, keep trying and don't stop. One day we all will see the results. Until next time...

OK I am gonna drown

OK I am gonna drown in my own pee if I continue to drink this much water. 69 ounces of water yesterday with that much to come today. I did  really well with the diet yesterday I even told my mother no when she wanted to give me a tart she made. I have come to relize that I am addicted to food. I have put myself in a "comfort zone" mantality that has ruined my life. I will make to my goal weight and be there to see my kids live long full lifes. Until next time....

292 and counting

OK DAY 1- 292.7lbs and that means I have to lose 150lbs to reach my goal weight. I am doing this the old fashion way with diet and exercise. I know that I am gonna get discouraged and want to quit but I am hoping that this will help me stay on tract.