A truth to be conqured

When I was working out this morning I looked down and saw my stomach getting flat. I really have to admit that it scared me a little. I have become so cocooned in my shell of being overweight that it is a kind of scary thought to allow myself out of the shell. When you are overweight people look at you and never think of you as a person. You are the fat girl or the heavyset lady that lives down the street. You don't have people expecting you to be real. I think that is alot of why I let myself become that person. The hurt I have dealt with in my life made me want to keep people away from me. That way nobody could hurt me. I see now though that you can't live that way. That instead of protecting yourself you are hurting yourself. Nobody saw me which is what I wanted at the time but somewhere in it all I also lost myself. The person I was disappeared and was replaced by an eating wreak of a human being. I can see now that somewhere in all this weight there is a person who is craving love and respect. A person who craves to be human again. I will set her free in time. I will conquer this battle and I will be that person with emotions again. God bless and until next time...