Day 1

OK so I am feeling like I need to change course so to speak. I have been cheating a little with the diet and so here goes day 1 again. I am gonna drink my water, watch my fats, and count my meals and snacks. Three meals a day and 2 snacks. I am also gonna log my water intake as well. 64 ounces of water a day. I am still down on my weight but if I don't stop this slip up now I won't be down long. Its ok to have to start again. As long as you have the effort you can have the results. God bless and until next time...

284

Today's weight 284. That is a total of 40 pounds gone. I am feeling good but I am tired too. I  worked out for 2 hours today. I have never done that before. I have worked every muscle in my body I think. I know it sure feels like it. I now have to adjust my diet and start drinking more water. I think I may even try to run in the evenings. God bless and until next time...

Double the workouts

Ok so the doubling up on workout thing was not my best ideal. I am trying to get there but to be honest it is making me so tired that I am regretting that decision. I am down to 287 though. I haven't seen that number in some years it is nice to see. My clothes are now too big and I am looking like a bum on most days because nothing fits. That is ok though because I can slowly get clothes along the way. Well that's it for now I guess. God bless and until next time...

289

Woke up this morning and got on the scale to see 289 staring back at me. I am so excited to be out of the 290's. I hope I never see those again. My friend invited me to go on vacation with her in late May so if things work out for me and I can stay on track I am hoping to see 250 by then. I know it is alot of weight to get rid of but I believe I can do it. She is a great support system for me as are all of you it is nice to know I have people who believe in me. Diet is going good and it really doesn't seem much like a diet anymore. It is more like this is just the way I eat. So I guess that is good. I have a feeling that Easter Dinner is gonna be interesting by the time I get done with it. LOL. God bless and until next time...

3 more pounds

I am currently at 292 so that means that 3 more pounds and I will be under 290. I want that 3 pounds GONE! I want it worse than I want girl scout cookies worse than I want chips. LOL. I can not wait until I can post that I am under 290. That will be so HUGE!

My 11 year old son brought girl scout cookies in my house ( my favorite kind by the way) I got so upset and then I thought about it and realized that he can have them and I am fine with that. I have always needed so much support to do anything I am proud of the fact that I can see that I am winning. I still battle food and I guess I always will but I am winning. I can see some light even if it is faint I can see it. I have a feeling that I  can do this no matter what is around. Anyway sorry if this one is hard to read. My mind is racing today. God bless and until next time...

Weight

Why does a persons weight have to go up and down so much. This would be so much easier if I didn't see a 1 or 1.5 pound difference every time I get on the scale. I have tried the first thing in the morning and there are some days that by that evening I weigh more and sometimes less. This is really killing me. I never know for sure what is right and what is wrong. I believe that I am gonna stick to whatever is lowest. Ha that will work.

I know have a new workout buddy which is great. My aunt has decided that she wants to work on her weight too so that gives me 2 people to work out with. Now that the weather is starting to warm up I can also walk in the evenings which I am sure will help. Well that is it for now. Time to get up and move. God less and until next time...

2 a days

In football when summer comes and it is time for conditioning they have what is known as 2 a days. This means that twice a day all players must report to workouts. I am now on that same principal, I am now going to workout twice a day. I have lost 35 pounds now and I want to get below 250 before summer. I know what I am eating and what to avoid. I know to drink my water and now I am upping my game. I hope this works, and if you see me out and about please tell me I am not crazy ok. God bless and until neat time...

Now at 293

When I weighed this morning I am proud to announce I am at 293. I feel great and I am proud of myself for all my hard work. I do have to admit that I have been drinking way too many diet sodas so I am going to work on that this week. I am also increasing my weight and reps at the gym this week. That is the hard part when it is time for increases at the gym. But I think I can handle it. I also got into a pair if pants a friend got me last spring. I left them hanging in my closet all this time still with the tags on them. Now I  and can proudly say I have went from a 32 to a 26. God bless until next time...

Sugar Free Strawberry Delights

1 pint of fresh strawberries
1 tub of Sugar free Cool Whip
8oz of Sugar Free Dark Chocolate
1 pack of Crepes
1 tub of Sugar Free Strawberry Glaze


Cut and Clean Strawberries. Mix with half of the glaze, Then in the center of a crepes add one tablespoon of strawberries, 1 Tbs of Cool whip and fold forming a square. Repeat until all are completed. Top with cool whip. In a small bowl melt the dark chocolate. Drizzle over the top, Drizzle some of the remaining glaze. Stick in fridge until chocolate sets.

Serving size- 1 crepes
Calories- about 50

I hope you all try this recipe. It is very good and very low in fat . You feel like you are having a guilty pleasure without it being one.

Trying on clothes

Ok so yesterday I went to the local Walmart with my mother. I was looking around and saw some jeans and thought I would just try them on just to see. I got them up and button but not able to zip them yet but still what a great feeling I got. I was wearing size 32 pants when I started this journey and I was able to get a size 26 up and fastened. It felt like such an accomplishment to be able to get that far. I know in a few more I will be able to wear a size 26 and I will be so happy. This is really hard to get through but I know I can do it. I want to be able to wear a two piece bathing suit. I may not be there by summer but if I continue to work hard enough I just might. God bless and until next time....

My grocery bill was alot smaller then

I can't believe how much my grocery bill has went up since I started this new lifestyle. Just the cost of trying to keep small things in the house is huge. Oh well, I am doing well on this new plan and I am goning to stick with it.

Now what is own my mind today...Well tomorrow I am going out to eat with my entire family. I have a new killer dress that shows how much weight I have lost and I am going to wear that. I also have to try to research what I can eat so I will know what to order. I am going to The Rush this afternoon I have some things to do first but no matter what try to get in your workouts. I miss one every now and then but I try to stay true to them. Well I guess that is it for now. God bless and until next time...

Down 10 inches

Yes thats right 10 inches gone from my body. I feel AWSOME! I still have along way to go but now I really feel like I will get there. I am so excited to see my pants are too big. I can cross my legs, set indian style on the floor, and can touch the floor with my legs straight and palms flat. I can't wait to see what I look like, only 154lbs to go. Thanks for the support God bless and until next time...

A truth to be conqured

When I was working out this morning I looked down and saw my stomach getting flat. I really have to admit that it scared me a little. I have become so cocooned in my shell of being overweight that it is a kind of scary thought to allow myself out of the shell. When you are overweight people look at you and never think of you as a person. You are the fat girl or the heavyset lady that lives down the street. You don't have people expecting you to be real. I think that is alot of why I let myself become that person. The hurt I have dealt with in my life made me want to keep people away from me. That way nobody could hurt me. I see now though that you can't live that way. That instead of protecting yourself you are hurting yourself. Nobody saw me which is what I wanted at the time but somewhere in it all I also lost myself. The person I was disappeared and was replaced by an eating wreak of a human being. I can see now that somewhere in all this weight there is a person who is craving love and respect. A person who craves to be human again. I will set her free in time. I will conquer this battle and I will be that person with emotions again. God bless and until next time...

Emotions

So often in my I have turned to food when I felt bad now I am realizing how much more damage I did to myself by doing that. I am trying to stay focused and stay on track. This weekend however has been a battle for me. I have not been able to do alot because it has been raining. My kids and husband have been home all day long so there has been arguing going on. These I realize are the moments when I want to eat. I am not hungry I am just feeding my frustration. So now I know and see them for what they are and I can now proudly say I can stop myself. This is not just about weight loss but I also have alot of emotions to cope with. I can do this I know I can. It is just gonna take time. God bless and until next time...

I can cross my legs

I went to set down today and I can now cross my legs. I am so excited that I can do that. I know it is a small thing but when you are as big as I am getting small enough to cross my legs is a big deal. I can't wait to see what I will look like by summer. I will post a before picture soon. Thanks for the support God bless and until next time...

My hardest workout

I have such a hard time dragging myself to the gym yo workout when it is raining. I just want to stay home and sleep or veg in front of the TV. I know though that if I don't go workout then I most likely will not do anything else so I had better go to the gym. Spring is right around the corner and with it the pretty weather I need to go outside and do things. This year is gonna be so different from before. I am not gonna just sit around. I am gonna get out and run and play with my kids. I am gonna lose this weight. God bless and until next time...

I made it

I made it to my first goal. Today I am officially under 300 lbs. 298.5 to be exact. I am so excited it is an unbelievable high to reach my goal. The next goal is to see 250 by the end of May. I am gonna have to work really hard but I know I can do it. God bless and until next time...

Feeling good

Woke up this morning and went to clean my friends house. Now I am getting ready to hit the gym. I feel great lots of energy. My diet is back on track and hopefully I can stay there. I am loving the exercise it makes me feel good. I hope that this feeling stays with me. Now with warmer weather moving in I can go for walks in the evening. Well off to the gym. God bless and until next time...

OK I Cheated

Ok so I cheated last night for dinner. I had pizza. I know, I am not suppose to eat like that anymore but I was so tired I didn't want to cook. The husband and kids were wanting it so I gave in. Confession is good so I confess. I will get back on track today and stick with my diet. I will work out extra hard today and it will not hurt me too much I don't think. Trying hard to keep up the fight I am not going to give up this time. I WILL lose this weight. God bless and until next time...

March 1st

New month  and that means a new goal. This month is simple stay on track and lose 20lbs by month's end. I hope I can do it. I have the gym now and I love going over there so hopefully I can stay on tack. I am having the most trouble out of my diet. I want to eat at night and during the day I am not hungry so I am really working on that. I hope someone gets something out of this. I really want to make a difference in someones life. I hope telling my story helps. God bless and until next time...